To be found by a four leaf clover
All we have to do is to live from a place of love
The tale of how I was found by an unbelievable number of four leaf clovers in short succession and the messages they want me to carry forward.
Have you ever seen a feather borne on the wind, blown this way and that and wondered whether she’s flying or falling?
That is the space I inhabit at the moment. I’m in a phase of my life where much is changing, I’ve uprooted myself from the place that was my home for six years, left the business that was my workplace and family for almost eight. Floating between the life I had and the one I’m about to create.
The ecstatic joy of ‘look, I’m soaring!’ mixed with the terror of ‘oh shit I’m going to crash.’
Someone once told me that too much certainty is death and if that holds true, at least I know I’m well and truly alive.
I remember when I was nine years old and my family moved from the city to a suburban area much closer to nature. There was a small patch of undisturbed forest right outside our house and I used to go out there by myself and stand quietly for long minutes until eventually little mice would come out, sniff at my shoes and dart around me.
Bright black button eyes alert, busy noses moving, to me they were furry forest fairies without wings.
‘Hello’, I would let my heart quietly whisper. ‘Will you be my friend?’
An innate and intuitive assumption that this was a perfectly normal bond to form with the natural world. It is something I have had to remember again after taking a detour through the shallow waters of a world view that rests firmly upon only paying attention to the things we can see on the surface.
To be witnessed by nature plants us firmly within her. All life is sacred.
In almost 30 years of walking this planet, I have never found a single four leaf clover. I have wanted to, sure, I have looked for them, yearned for a gush of destiny to bestow luck and magic upon me. When I was a child, I would frequently pick a leaf of a common clover and pin it to another one with my fingers. Wishing, pretending, I have always been a dreamer.
More than 30 found four leaf clovers later, each one with a message, all discovered within a matter of around three weeks, I’m now about to tell you the story of the most wondrous and clear way the universe has ever communicated with me. Nature, energies, consciousness, they speak all the time, it’s just that we mostly don’t listen and often don’t believe.
I have tried to recall the messages that have come through as best as I could, many of them I didn’ keep a record of. The ones I still know I have collected here.
“I was walking the dogs when the thought popped into my head that if I found a four leaf clover now, I should give it to you. I looked down and there it was. It’s imperfect and chewed on, but so is luck and so is life and so are we all really.”
The closest thing to home I know at the moment is being held by my friends who generously let me live as a part of their family while I attempt to navigate the liminal space that is my life and existence for now. I found myself walking the dogs one evening, sunlight filtering through the trees, moisture laid out on the grass like pearls, the village dozing beautifully at the foot of a hill in the distance.
Into this scene dropped the thought that just in case I would happen to find a four leaf clover, I should give it to one of the people I’m staying with. Not one to dismiss a sudden prompt from the universe, I thought I might as well have a quick look around. And there it was, right at my feet, spotted easily and immediately. The leaves were frayed and chewed and starting to dry out around the edges, but it was a four leaf clover nonetheless. So I picked it, gently carried it home and left it on my friend’s desk with the note quoted above.
I felt strongly that the clover was carrying a reminder for us not to wait for perfection before we acknowledge the wondrous beauty of the living beings around us. Imperfection is a sign of aliveness. Anyone who is living a life of interaction will have dents and bruises, imprints and traces of relations, both visible ones and those that can only be sensed. It makes us all the more beautiful and unique.
“I don’t actually recall ever finding a four leaf clover before, bigger things are at work here and miraculous happenings await you on your path.”
One found could be a coincident. But two in a row? This is the point where I knew I was in fact being led. There’s deep vulnerability in taking action based on messages from the spiritual realm like this, our human consciousness can get in the way, worrying about how it will be received and what people will think of us.
‘Is he going to think I’m crazy? Or that I’m making it up?’
But what if we considered that maybe the way it is received is outside our responsibility and control? That it is not for us to worry about? When messages come to us, sensations, feelings, visions, inclinations, could our task simply be to open the door for beauty to move through? I have a feeling that taking action is the way we communicate to the universe and our own awareness that we are engaging with the present energies and that we will feel into our hearts and embark on the journey we’re being invited on.
Who knows which wonders are ready to find us when we live in a state where we’re findeable?
Who knows in which ways our lives will start saying yes to us once we say a loud, resounding yes to them?
What I know for sure is that through saying yes to this adventure, without knowing where and how far it would lead me, by picking up the clovers and delivering them with their messages, a greater consciousness started to erase all doubt I might have had about nature communicating with us and about the existence of an entwined net of consciousness around and within us creating eternal connection and kinship.
“The magic is finding you for a reason. Trust it.”
Imagine that there could be an original dream your soul has that compelled her to be the base imprint from which a physical body gets to be alive at this particular time. A journey, an exploration, our souls are always on a quest for growth and evolvement.
What is that dream? How do we remember and follow it? One of the coming clovers has some thoughts on that.
For now consider this: We all have a purpose, even at times where perhaps we can’t see it ourselves. We are here for a reason, we encounter and recognise magic for a reason. Close your eyes for a moment and let divinity take your hand and lead you. Trust it.
“When you encounter a miracle, believe in your absolute worthiness to witness and receive it.”
One of the biggest limitations we can set for ourselves is doubting that we are worthy of joy, love, play, rest, empowerment and fulfilment. Often an undercurrent is found in society of feeling that we are somehow born fundamentally flawed and have to spend our life hustling and struggling to prove that we are worthy of good things entering our lives.
In all and everything I’ve ever been shown and told by nature it has been clear though that worthiness is our birth right. We are worthy as we are. Everyone. Worthy and loved unconditionally.
“Let the universe speak to you in a thousand different ways. Through the cosmos, nature, the animals, our ancestors, the feeling in your heart and through someone who loves you being found by four leaf clovers so that she may pass them on to you.”
This relates back to your soul’s dream and vision.
If the way the buzzards draw their story in sky seems to tell you something, listen. If the way a squirrel runs towards you when he should be running away seems to carry meaning, pay attention. If you feel called to hug a certain tree or tell someone you love them or deliver a certain message, throw your heart into it and do it.
All these things are ways the universe leads our souls to remember and rediscover their dreams. Our inspirations and passions can feel trivial and appear meaningless and coincidental sometimes, but have you ever experienced looking back just to marvel at the way one thing led to another and how something unfolding in your life could never have manifested without these events occuring in just that combination and timing?
In verse 70 of the Gospel of Thomas you find a quote saying:
“If you bring forth what is within you, what you bring forth will save you. If you do not bring forth what is within you, what you do not bring forth will destroy you.”
Consider this your invitation to allow yourself to follow and believe in what you love.
“This one asks me to tell you how much I love and adore you, it can never be said too much.”
This is an important one. So much love is lost through not being expressed. And I’m not speaking exclusively about romantic love here, but equally the love you have for friends and family, for a stranger who smiles at you from across the street, for pets, animals, nature and this incredible planet we live on, for life and the energies that connect us.
I love you.
I once made a promise to myself not to heed those who say these words should be used sparingly, cautiously, only in special moments with very few special people. Those who advise you to wait for ‘the one’, as if we only have a limited amount of love stored and will deplete our stock by loving generously.
What I have found is that love begets love. Love set free creates more of itself. So I treat it like a never-ending supply of confetti and sprinkle it everywhere at every opportunity I get.
Say it often, say it so loudly that it makes the recipient a little uncomfortable, say it genuinely.
I love you.
“Your impact is reaching and will reach far beyond what you can even imagine. Your spirit touches an infinite number of lives. Graces an infinite number of lives in fact.”
The change we can affect in this world is limitless and boundless. Just think about what happens when someone does something nice for you, offers you a compliment, a smile, a shoulder to lean on or simply a space to be held and free. It makes you want to pass it on, doesn’t it? When we create someone to feel loved, seen, heard and felt we initiate a ripple effect that travels on far beyond what we may be conscious of. Every little lived act of kindness lifts the vibration of our world. Imagine the combined force of 8 billion people each lifting just a little. Oh how we would soar.
“While you’re busy serving and facilitating everyone’s liberation, remember that your own liberation matters hugely too. You deserve to be joyfully free.”
It is a tender, gorgeous thing to take care of those around us. Be that humans or other living beings or the environments that sustain life (which incidentally are living beings in their own right). In all this, remember that you can only deliver freedom when you yourself are free. Sometimes the service we offer can turn into the chains that bind us, and it can be a torn, difficult and painful situation to deal with.
I don’t have the answers for how to truly be free here, how to balance caring for ourselves and for those around us, how to love myself on those days where I feel all I can do is disappoint. What I have learned though is how to keep asking questions, keep considering and contemplating things. And I rather think that curiosity could be the glimmer that guides us and gives us hope when we find that the entangled forest of our mind has grown too dark for us to be able to see our next step.
“You are enough and you’re doing enough. Always.”
Let your wings unfold, spread them wide. Allow yourself to take up space. You are enough as you are and you matter hugely. Feel the discomfort and do it anyway, do it afraid if you must, which will often be the case. Enough as you are. Enough as is.
“The blessings the universe grants us are countless and limitless. All we have to do is to live from a place of love.”
I hadn’t found any clovers for a few days when I found this one and I was grappling with the slight disappointment and worry that accompanies things slipping away when we would like to keep them for just a little longer. What had happened was that my ego started to get involved and feel a sense of urgency around finding more clovers in a bid for significance and attention. In that moment the universe stepped in and withheld the gifts from me. Only when I surrendered to the circumstances, trusted that I would be found by the things I was meant to find and let go of the rather selfish fixation on myself I was holding, was the next clover revealed to me. The opportunity to find more clovers was never really taken away, it was just a matter of searching for the right reasons. The highest vibration is carried when we put our dreams into service.
“It’s going to be ok, whatever it is.”
In Danish, when we want to say that something will be alright, we say: “It will go”. And there’s a saying that sounds like this: “It will go, and if it doesnt’t go, it probably goes anyway.”
Beyond having faith and trust in that things will be alright, we can tap into an even greater faith. The one that assures us that however things go, we will be able to figure them out. I used to experience quite a bit of anxiety in a variety of situations, especially when things started to deviate from the plans and predictions I had made in advance in order to be as ok as possible. It took me a while to understand that I didn’t need to plan better, but instead had to learn to trust myself to make my way through regardless.
“We have absolutely nothing to fear. God holds more love for us than we can possibly imagine.”
I met God once during a shamanic ceremony, shared consciousness with God in fact. Let the words above speak for themselves. If I could let every human on this planet feel in their heart what I felt in mine then, believe me I would.
“Thank you. Truly.”
On one particular day, when I entered a state where I embodied gratitude to a point where I had tears streaming down my face, I found five four leaf clovers sitting pretty much right next to each other. Or rather, I was found by them. Nature very clearly showed me where to put my attention.
To consider that maybe creation is grateful four our presence, reverence and contribution in return, is an act of love.
To truly love another is to love oneself.
To truly love oneself is to love all life.
To live from a place of love is liberation.
Love sets us free.
Is it daring of me to stop quoting the clovers at number 13? Perhaps. But personally I’ve always felt that 13 might as well be a lucky magical number. For me, the notion that it’s unlucky falls into the same category as the implication that witches are bad and our own darkness something dangerous that we should avoid at all cost. I think it would be foolish to assume that the Goddess only ever rose.
So I will take my chances, repeatedly, rebelliously, lovingly.
Until we meet again xx
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Every line of this is rich and delicious! I’ve also been thinking of that Gospel of Thomas verse a lot lately (for someone who has never read the full text ha!).
I’ve never been drawn to clover like this (though I totally did that fake-it-with-an-extra-leaf thing as a kid) but hearing your connection and the transmissions you received sparked me to look up descriptions of clover essence.
From freedom-flowers.com: “Clover flower essence fosters intuition, clarity, reasoning skills and logical thinking, as well as proper perspective on life events, which add up to a much better time in this life. It helps us to adjust better to circumstances that are outside of our control, and counterbalances fatalistic thinking. Clover helps us to see where our realm of responsibility lies.”
Utterly fitting based on what you’ve shared. Thank you for sharing clover’s good news! 🧡
Kira, to me this piece is a transmission straight from the heart of nature. I don’t think my words will be enough right now, so I will beam a luminous rainbow of thanks from my heart. Thank you so much for sharing 💐